Doubts.

According to Dictionary.com, Doubt means- to be uncertain about.

That would pretty much sum up my feelings towards my future.
I doubt that I will live happily ever after with him.
I doubt that I will be successful, no matter what path I choose.
I doubt that my parents would ever be satisfied with who I will become.

I continue to doubt, and realize that I'm really not going to get anywhere if I continue to doubt.

Why I doubt?
-I doubt that I will live happily ever after because maybe in the end it's not meant to be. What happens if we break up? What happens if I do join the military? There are many what if's to this relationship, and that is not a good sign. Maybe I should break it off while I can, before it gets any deeper into the relationship. I just don't know.

- I will not be successful because I don't know what I want. Dentist, Lawyer, Psychologist, Marines? For only beting 16 those are a lot of different career paths I've thought about, and for the longest time I've wanted to be a Lawyer.. But no that's too much money, Psychologist, too much money.. Marines? Yeah! I'll risk my life to get free schooling.. greaaaat, I'm all for it (:

- My parents have never said "I'm proud of you" in 16 years I've been wandering this planet. Maybe they never will, maybe it's just a moment waiting to happen. Until then, I doubt.

Anyways this is all for today,
'Til next time.

To the future..

Senior Year is literally right around the corner..

I feel like I've signed up for 10 classes next year!! Theres so much I still want to do with so little time :(

So far I think my schedule goes a little something like::

1- Advanced Show Choir
2- Psychology AP
3- Calculus AP
4- ASB
5- Journalism
6- English 4 Exp

BUT now I'm thinking the Marines.. and what better way to get ready than JrROTC right?
but where am i supposed to fit that??

AND now I'm thinking Basketball again?? ughhhh already stressing about the school year and it's not even here :(

Anyways the summer has been relaxing :]
went to DC for the first week
then came back to relax a week and get settled in
then Tennis for 3 weeks xP
and now Summer School :) gotta get that Gov/Econ class OUT of the way :P

The "real" world is out there..
and it's coming quick.

That'll be all for now.